_ A Gift _

It is a Gift from Le bf for my 21 bday.. hahaha.. handmade bah card dia.. lucu + Cute.. tq! I heart you.. <3

Will miss You dear Grandma.. :(

God saw you were getting tired, and a cure was not to be. So He put His arms around you, and whispered, "come with me". With tearful eyes we watched you suffer, and saw you fade away. Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands to rest. God broke our hearts to prove to us, He only takes the best. Rest in peace, Mama..

Lord, I'm tired.. I need You.. :(

Lord, I'm tired and i need You.. Fill me with Your love.. make me strong.. give me strength to face all my sickness, my fear, my problems..

~Freedom~

Totally im freedom!! no more exam.. holiday for 2months.. kihoooiiii..  haaahaaa. n a time for me to reflect my ownself what i really need for.. hmm..

~~kbk ^~~

wow.. punya siok tyme kbk.. haha..
1st, smpai sna memang masi malu2 lagi.. ndak tau nie p mau buat sbab tyme dtg tu, durg sdg makan mlm,. ramai da y dtg awal.. then, ada Ekaristi.. pas tu tido.. urg tido, kmi bercerita.. tpi x lama lah.. second day, start sesi2.. memang dpt bnyak input lah abt wat happen to our community rite now.. many issue dat we hv to concern abt.. specially issue dat connect abt our youth.. last day, ada doa pagi, then sesi about SYD3.. itu pun dpt sum input y berharga.. haha.. then, Ekaristi with Bishop.. sesi bergambar then muli.. tyme sesi bergambar tu y siok.. adoi.. ndak brenti bah ketawa.. haha.. buli2 alex buat gaya cina2, gaya gay.. haha.. lawak o.. then tyme dlm perjalanan, singgah di puncak.. makan d sna.. men scrabble lgi.. adui.. memang best moment lah.. laugh together, eat together, share together.. haha.. dat tyme, i realise dat our relation between us (TPBP) become more closer than before.. haha.. really love this team.. hope it wil remain like this n even be more2 better..

walk together!! GBU all...

~~A Lie~~

~“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”~

~“The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.”~

~ “A single lie destroys a whole reputation for integrity”~

~“Lying is done with words and also with silence.”~

~“If one is to be called a liar, one may as well make an effort to deserve the name.”~

~“It is easier to believe a lie that one has heard a thousand times than to believe a fact that no one has heard before”~

~“The liar's punishment is not in the least that he is not believed, but that he cannot believe anyone else.”~

~“A tiger can smile, A snake will say it loves you, Lies make us evil”~

~“No one can lie, no one can hide anything, when he looks directly into someone's eyes.”~

~“I'm not smart enough to lie”~

 

All are lie.. cant stand for more lie from u.. make my world destroy.. my believe goin down n down everyday..

*My classmate*

This all is my beloved classmate.. we having so much fun during our holiday at Tagal, Ranau.. it gives us so much sweet memories n bad memories.. the most important is, our relationship become more better... i realise, at there, i can know my fren more closer.. know who they really are.. how to understand n keep close to them all..

the memory of Tagal will remain not in my mind, but in my heart..



some words y bkin ketawa when we all there...

          "sekali lagi!"
          "sapa lambat kna tinggal ok"
all of this words has their own memory.. haha..

 To all my fren, DPR3A, if u read this, i wan u all to know dat i love u all so much.. hope we can stand be a bestfren 4 ever.. pls, dnt break this relation..

~~~VisiOn~~~

Hmm.. i dont know actually this is a vision from God or just my Feeling.. but i owez Got this vision..

first, after come back from CCR at inanam, i go sleep with my grandma.. then, i have a dream.. dlm mimpi tu, sa berada dalam bangsal kuda yang belum siap sepenuhnya.. kira macam masih dalam pembikinan.. bangsal tu besar betul.. then, i ask a guy yang ada di sana jalan tuk keluar dari tu bangsal.. the guy cakap 'p jak sana hujung, ada pintu tu'.. then sa p lah kunun.. sekalinya kan, bila sa buka tu pintu, sa nampak awan hitam,keadaan time tu pnya panas.. tanah2 di bumi menjadi kering... xda lagi haiwan.. xda lagi tumbuhan..langsung xda apa-apa... tanah terbelah2,cuaca panas.. awan tebal.. itu aja y tinggal..

Then,sa tutup blik tu pintu.. sa p cari lagi jalan keluar yang lain.. sa jmpa lagi 1 pintu.. bla sa buka tu pntu, bgtu juga keadaa d luar.. datang satu lelaki,dia cakap ' Tuhan sudah datang.. tinggal kita lagi yang tinggal di sini.. tunggu aja lah kedatangan Tuhan yang kedua kali".. aduh.. time tu, punya sa sedih.. bnyk persoalan timbul nie.. knapa sa tertinggal???? time tu datang kazen sa.. ada satu perempuan juga datang p dekat kami..dia manawarkan kami rumah time tu.. herannya kan.. tadi sa x nampak langsuung bangunan.. tapi tiba2 datang perempuan menawarkan kami rumah.. jadi kami ikut lah dia.. kami nampak ada rumah teres,usang betul... buruk betul.. kalau ada gempa bumi yang kecil pun buli runtuh kali.. kami ingat itu lah rumah yang dia mau bagi.. rupanya bukan..

Dia terus bawa kami berjalan.. sampai lah p satu rumah yang kecil.. memang sesuai lah untuk kami tinggal.. tu rumah kan kecil tpi cantik.. cantik betul.. sekeliling dia kan ada bunga2.. kan keliling bunga lah tu taman.. memang canti.. di sana lah kami tinggal.. menanti dan mempersiapkan diri untuk kedatangan Tuhan..

mungkin Tuhan kasi tgk sa nie semua supaya sa sdar.. hari akhir zaman akan tiba suatu hari nanti.. kita sebagai umatNya harus sentiasa mempersiapkan diri kita.. betapa sengsaranya kalau tertinggal di bumi setelah pengangakatan...

ingat.. serahkan seluruh hidup kita kepada Yesus.. berbalik lah kepadaNya.. Halleluyah!!!

Tuhan,

Buat aku lebih mengasihi yang jahat padaku.

Buat aku lebih mengasihi yang menghancurkan hidupku.

Buat aku lebih mengasihi yang membunuh karakterku.

Buat aku lebih mengasihi yang menghambat hidupku.

Buat aku mengasihi yang terus mencela dan menghina aku.

Buat aku lebih mengasihi yang tidak menyukai aku.

Tuhan,

Buatlah aku lebih mengasihi karena hanya dengan mengasihi saya bisa menyerupai diri-Mu.

Jadikan hatiku semakin lembut selembut hati-Mu.

siNginG foR mY Lord

Last nite (29 oct 2010)  i cannot sleep.. it was around 1.30a.m..my heart beating fast n keep on singing "Lord i give u my heart" song.. Then i feel my body become cold.. I Feel like the Holy Spirit surround me..sddnly i hear a whisper.. I know the voice.. It was the voice that whisper to me at the mass last Sunday.. This time He only says"my princess".. oh God.. that was God whisper.. He heard my heart Sing for HIm..

My heart keep on singing.. My eyes was close.. Then i saw a bird.. A white bird.. It was a dove bird.. At its mouth has a small piece of paper but i dont know what have been written on it.. Slowly the bird fly n fly n then disappear from my sight.. Thats how my night last night.. I remember in Jeremiah 29:13 says"And you will seek Me, and find Me, when u search for Me with all your heart... Jesus watching for us.. He wants to talk to us.. but the Question is "Did you want to hear Him???" for me.. Yes!!!! i want to talk with Him.. i want to see Him.. who ever be a good children of Him,will see Him.. seek Him and Find Him with all Your heart n He will come to You..